“With our thoughts, we make the world,” Buddha once said.
Do you like what you see?
Full Moon in Gemini
December 11 and 12
(9:12 pm PST; 12:12 am EST)
In the 20th Degree
of Gratitude & Choice
The Set-Up for this Lunar Love Note: A goodbye letter to a harmful relationship that Gemini, who rules our communication and our intellect, knows well.
If you’re on the edge of saying goodbye to someone or something, please hold that sacred space you’re walking while reading this Lunar Love Note.
In true Storyteller fashion, I can see how you, my darling, have dominated the pages of the Love Story my heart—not my mind—was born to write.
You enthralled me with your wild stories when I was a child, teased me with your imaginative spirit as a teen and seduced me with your fierce intellect as an adult, making me believe in the power of my mind to create the world of my dreams. I loved how you made me feel.
So I became obsessed with learning, the need to consume as much information as my brain could store. Your voice grew louder and your tales more outrageous and I started to believe that I didn’t know enough, wasn’t doing enough, that I would never be enough.
You kept me up at night, often stole hours of precious sleep with my racing thoughts and fearful forecasts that had me grasping for new information to ease this pain and anxiety.
How I believed the stories you told, the diversions you created reinforced by the structures and systems that run in full service to this tiny, under-utilized computer inside our head.
But I’m done. Something broke inside.
I simply have no more time for the criticizing, the fence-sitting, the fearful imaginings, the false stories you create. I will no longer torture myself with the what if’s and the why not’s, the incessant replays of my personal history. I will no longer berate myself for the desires that I have.
I now know that these dreams of laughter and love, freedom and fulfillment, peace and beauty, have been placed inside me, so I’m compelled to open my arms wide enough to receive a different story.
No, I don’t hate you–I’m not even mad anymore. I want you to understand that I realize what you’ve been doing. I believe some part of you wanted to protect me from change, from getting hurt, shielding me from the shards of the glass ceilings I’ve been breaking.
And will continue to break.
Because I’m no longer enthralled by the drama of an undisciplined mind, of easy fiction, of the smell of cheap entertainment.
You see I’ve been dedicated to tuning in and tracking my dreams. In this inner exploration, I’ve found some powerful Allies who’ve kept the fire burning when I couldn’t always see the light on the path of True Love, to feel the Divine in every pore of my being.
So, my beautiful mind, the truth is the doorway is through the heart.
And because I know this, I’m releasing you and our complicated history this Full Moon. I’ve written our story here in this letter, which I will burn in honour of this freedom I feel.
Flames. Ashes. Desire. Rebirth.
So goodbye to you, my lover. We’ll remain friends, of course.
I just gave you too much control because that’s what I learned to do.
But I know how to quiet your voice now by meditating every day, connecting to my breath, tuning in to my body, to my own beating heart, to intuit how to weave and dance in this world.
I trust my heart and am letting Her guide my decisions, for She speaks the language of my Soul. And I’m falling in love with my life more and more each day.
Look at the time. I must go.
I’m going to walk away now. Don’t ask me to stay—your words that used to dazzle, daze and confuse have lost their effect on me.
I’m being fed more these days by the Higher Mind and the fierce, loving intellect of the Divine Light.
I just need to open the door to my heart every day and breathe in that light because when I do, I know how beautifully tender and precious this life can be.
Love from my bursting heart,
Your Full Moon Ceremony
It’s the last Full Moon of 2019, such an opportune time to release what’s been playing on our minds that feels heavy, untrue, unkind, hard.
Ceremony is that sacred time to communicate with your heart and ask for a more loving way.
Gemini is a fresh energy that brings in clariy and new perspective–and an important reminder that we are always in choice.
WRITING A GOODBYE LETTER: Writing a letter and burning it is a powerful, alchemical process in freeing ourselves from what is unkind and untrue so we can grow in loving awareness.
This Full Moon, you might put pen to paper and write a letter about a relationship you are prepared to let go and the reasons for this decision.
This relationship may be with an addiction, a specific fear, a self-imposed barrier.
This relationship could be with a person (romantic, friend, professional or spiritual) who’s negatively impacted how you view yourself, the choices you’ve made in your life, the ways you’ve held yourself back.
Often when we realize we’ve given a part of ourselves away to someone or something for too long, sadness and even shame can come in. Let that go.
Love yourself enough to release it all, feeling grateful for the Sacred Knowing you now have, realizing you came for this liberation so you can reclaim your Heart Wisdom and the Divine Mind.
Burn this letter as a symbolic act that you’re ready for something different, acknowledging and taking responsibility for your learning.
What or whom are you ready to say goodbye to?
If you feel called, comment below. We’re all walking some edge of transformation. Let’s do so together.