To You Lovers of Love (thank you).
in my kitchen in August 2010.
9 days following my announcement I was divorcing my husband of 16 years, I found myself alongside my newly pregnant girlfriend who was watching me kiss goodbye my sweet cat of 10 years while she settled down on a cold, steel-grey table 4 blocks from my home.
Lucy had just received the shot that would make her soft fur-body hard and her wide blue eyes heavy before she slipped off into the formless form of love I imagine all those who have breathed life on this planet will take.
3 days later, heartbroken in an empty house, my hands soaking in warm dishwater, my face soaked with warmer tears, I asked the question I knew my Guides were patiently waiting for. I’m sure they placed bets on when this Libra would break
THEM: In four to six months.
In four to six months. And there is not just one man but two you may choose depending on the path you decide to walk.
I was so surprised and a little concerned, truly believing that I needed the time to reflect and heal.
But despite my concern about the timeline, my eyes were ever watchful and my heart always hopeful, I did meet both men four months later. And I fell in love with one of them, a soulmate who taught me (still teaches me) in a 13-month accelerated class that our relationship was about love but more about forgiveness–which is just greater love when you think about it.
At the time, I really thought he was “the one.”
The question I’d asked that hot summer day was clear and the response I heard even clearer. I spent the next two years looking at my beliefs around “the one.”
You might be too with (March 20th at 7:42 pm MST) bringing up love stories of your own—the relationships that have come and gone, the relationships you have now or the one you’re calling in.
Often a Mercury Retrograde like the one we’re in until March 28th will bring former lovers back into our lives—in the flesh, in our thoughts and in our dreams—just to see where we’re complete with relationships of the past, or to feel what hurts we’re still healing.
And while Libra deeply values Reciprocity, and , this Full Moon may be highlighting those relationships of ours that aren’t always resounding examples of those qualities, but showing us instead how imperfectly perfect and ridiculously messy our human love stories can be.
So, of course, in the learning and the loving and still more learning, we’ll have many different types of love stories to tell.
So I’ve heard stories over the years of twin flame (TF) love from many people, mostly about the powerful soul
At times, this love is unrequited–one’s the runner, the other the chaser—sometimes the roles are reversed depending on how overwhelmed either is with the magnitude of their feelings.
The running and the chasing, the separation and the union, designed to stir up with tremendous force issues around rejection and projection, abandonment and unrequited love, co-dependence and self-worth. All the deep-rooted pain rising hot and fast in order for the alchemical transformation to take place so that the relationship can be built on a foundation of unconditional love.
I’m no authority nor do I have any conclusive truth one way or another about the TF journey and I have asked, but fortunately if you’re interested, many teachers and coaches with good hearts are out there dedicated to this topic.
What I do believe is that all of us who desire to experience sacred love with another will be called to take a deep dive training in self-love and reciprocity, devotion and commitment, intimacy and vulnerability
So many big-hearted men and women long for a sacred relationship and because of that desire will meet someone who’ll initiate a journey of intense self-discovery that will not stop until they fall madly in love with their own fine selves first.
Rumi knows how it goes:
The minute I heard my first love story
I started looking for you, not knowing
how blind that was.
Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere,
They’re in each other all along.
The concept of having a twin or one true love is seductive (I’ll share my own story next Full Moon)–and Libra as the consummate Fence-sitter and Politician can hold space for a wide range of beliefs like no other sign in the Zodiac.
However, Libra can also make her own head spin with great romantic fantasies when it comes to the ones who’ve caught her eye and then captured her heart.
Libra easily finds the beauty, the potential, and the special gifts of loved ones, but sometimes this means that the pedestal on which she or he has placed the significant other will cause feelings to be stuffed and personal dreams to be placed on hold in order to keep the relationship with other intact while the relationship with self is suffering.
If you were to look at your most intimate relationships right now whether they are lovers, business partners, or intimate friends (Libra has stewardship over them all), is there any place you deny Love from them or for yourself?
If yes, it’s time to let go.
Time to balance the masculine with the feminine, the giving and the receiving.
Time to step in the light–your bright, beautiful light.
If we’re mastering Libra lessons, we’ll be asked at some point in the curriculum to take all that intense love we have for another and gift it to ourselves first, because the quality of the relationships we have with others is in direct correlation to the love relationship we have with ourselves.
Full Moons are symbolic of release and forgiveness. Tonight (and anytime), we can crack open our broken hearts to offer our pain-filled stories to the moonlit night, claiming our true desires for sacred love.
We can thank those inner parts of the psyche that tried to protect us from future hurt by waiting for a safer time to transform the pain into a more loving, kinder perspective that moves us towards Truer and Deeper Love than we ever dreamed possible.
If you’ve momentarily forgotten that the love you are seeking lives within you, let this Full Moon in Libra be the night you remember.
Reach for love, but first, know you are the love. May it be an intense, passionate affair.
If you have a story about your experience or beliefs about TF love (or if you know someone who does, please pass this on), I’d love to hear from you. Email me your story HERE or share with us in the comments below. We learn about our personal truths as we hear and reflect on each other’s stories, so thank you for being an agent of change.