Kuyén, Moon Goddess of the Mapuche people of Chile and Argentina
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of the Divine Feminine.
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New Moon in Leo
August 18 & 19, 2020
7:41 pm Pacific / 10:41 pm Eastern
In the 26th degree of Silence
& Creative Attunement
Happy New Moon!! A fresh start, a moment to catch our breath, to tune in and see where we’re at while we’re dancing around in the season of light-filled, joy-full Leo (the Sun and Mercury are there right now) and now a New Moon in Leo, the Lioness’s archetypal family ready to support and guide us through some tense times of change.
And so proudly the Creatrix in all her innovative glory steps onto the stage, followed by the Queen’s leadership, the magnetism of the Star, the playfulness of the Clown and the imagination of the Artist.
All of this fiery Lioness energy–the innovation, the leadership, the magnetism, the playfulness and the imagination swirling around us and within us, here for us to draw on just by stating our intention for that to happen.
Yet for this New Moon, the Leo archetype of your Inner Performer will take the stage just where and how She normally likes it, eager to hear from the crowd just how well she’s been playing her role.
Your Inner Performer, however, might not like the heat of the glaring spotlight thrust upon her this year as she’s being called front and center to address the soul learning she’s been undergoing in an attempt to elevate some of the Performer’s less exalted attributes, so in her healing, YOU can hear the love-rhythm of the cosmic drum that the spirit of our times is most certainly beating.
Our history is making itself known, individually and collectively. Whatever humanity has created in the past rooted in violence, in fear, in ignorance, in hate, in greed, in unforgiveness, in separation is asking for our full attention now, so it can fall apart, come tumbling all the way down. We’re in some tension-filled times as a result that aren’t going away any time soon. In fact, for the rest of this year the astrological cycles and planetary transits are asking us to become comfortable with being uncomfortable.
So how does your Inner Performer feel about all of this gut-wrenching, hand-wringing discomfort?
If you relate to this particular archetype and you’re conflict avoidant, likely you feel terrible–nervous, anxious, impatient, angry, especially if you want life to return to the way it once was, if you want to feel safe in the roles you normally play inside and outside of your home.
But you might have realized that “you” and “normal” are never, ever getting back together.
So what’s a Performer to do when she’s been taught all her life to do just that–perform?
Your answer may lie in asking yourself which archetypal energy navigates your life’s experiences–the Victim or the Witness?
If your Inner Victim is dominant, your tendency will be to collapse, blame, project, shirk responsibility for your participation in historical creations, make decisions in fear, hide out, feel powerless in addressing what you see going on around you and inside of you.
Your Witness, rather, will see any inner or outer confrontation and conflict, anger and aggression, rebellion and protest, chaos and discord as opportunities to go in, to see how comfortable you are with change, experiencing conflict and tension, how well you take being called out by someone or something, having lines being crossed, then setting or re-establishing boundaries, making plenty of mistakes along the way.
Can you trace back to the time when you first assumed a performance role and then how well you learned to play the part?
You could be someone who was literally trained as a child to be on a stage because you were a top athlete, studied dance, played an instrument or acted in your school’s plays. Consider all the training it took to give a flawless performance and how much applause was showered on you or adoration you received for a job well done.
Or maybe the child Performer for you had more serious reasons and consequences for taking on a role and acting a certain way.
How many of us had families in which we took on the premature role of a parent or adjusted our behaviour to address the troubling and traumatic things we saw unfold in our homes?
Maybe you had a parent who had an addiction. Maybe you were abused or assaulted and then were asked to keep the violation silent or if you did speak up, you were not believed?
Or maybe you were the child performer who screamed and had tantrums to garner the attention you were clearly not receiving?
As a child, learning to perform then was a survival strategy that had you on high alert, called you to be perfect, afraid of life hurtling out of control, feeling anxious about making mistakes, concerned about saying the wrong thing, fearful of being rejected, judged, criticized or called out.
The child Performer having grown into the adult is still hyper-aware of making mistakes (or others making them), fearful of not being liked or criticized, having developed stage fright (or a false bravado) in stepping up and speaking out about the hard stuff life is showing to her personally and collectively.
But none of us have have the luxury or even the right anymore to play the undesirable role of the overly senstive Performer if you’re saying you’re awake or a lightworker, a lover or a healer–if you’re saying you’re human.
The Performer as her True Self must liberate herself.
When your Inner Performer for Love takes on the role of a Friend and an Ally to yourself and others, you can bravely admit what you’ve been denying in front of you, vilifying who’s in front of you, why and where you’ve been hiding out and where you’ve been living unaligned to your values.
You come into your heart and into integrity –and the perceived opposition begins to melt, inner conflicts neutralize and wise, impactful steps can be taken because you’re living from the Truth of your Purpose and from the sacred knowing of who you are, sourced from Unconditional Love.
In your exalted expression of the Performer for Love, you devote the rest of your life to your great love-work, bringing devotion to your craft, artistry in how you care for yourself and others, giving yourself plenty of room to grow and space to learn while we all figure out how to move through these times of radical change.
We are all performers here–all having a role to play. How will you creatively attune yourself to the new vision and the Beauty Way? What will your new fully human, fleshed-out role be?
New Moon Ceremony: We Can Dance If We Want To
What will you do this New Moon to move the energy? To perform for Love, not to be Loved–cause you already are so very well loved.
*Where does the Performer show up in your life?
*How well has she or he served you? At home, at work, in social media, in your relationships to self and others?
*Where does the Performer take away the truth of who you are and how you might be called to serve?
Along with journaling about the questions above and setting New Moon intentions to address what you’re ready to release and how you would like to show up to your life right now, why not move your body as an expression of your visionary heart?
Creating intentions or goals through movement can be just as powerful as writing them down.
Historically, dance has been used as an act of rebellion to send a strong message to authorities that have restricted people’s movements and stripped them of their rights, the movement and music disrupting the energy while creating hope, inspiration and fresh energy for empowerment, revolution and transformation.
If you were going to address some part of you that’s connected to the energies of injustice, anger, rage, victimization, impatience, frustration, stagnation, grief, or hopelessness, what would your dance look like, feel like?
Dance, drum, chant, sing, paint, write, cook–Leo is here to remind you to engage in your full authentic expression.
And comment below how the Performer is stepping up and out in your life.
13 thoughts on “New Moon in Leo: You and Your Last Performance”
Hey Dear Jenn, did you just, again, write your love letter just for me !? Wow does it ever speak to my heart. Thank you 🙏🏼
Well, you make up part of my heart, mon amie. I love you so. I’m New Moon wishing we somehow someway see each other soon. Maybe we never let go.
So beautiful Jenn. I got goosebumps when I read the line “victim or witness” so powerful. I think most would like to think they’re above playing the violin and victim hood yet even those of us who’ve done the deep work through and through can have such moments. I feel I’ve definitely grown more and more into the witness and BC I’m such a Pisces, always so curious to learn the lessons right away!
The performer resonates especially from my corporate days. It wasn’t until I left that I finally realized I could literally choose who I want to work with and fully show up as me. No corporate language or specific way of showing up necessary. Just all heart and love.
Also, have been releasing and letting go of a lot over the past few weeks including this morning with a cutting cord ceremony! Making space for more blessings and love to enter.
Thanks for a great piece as always. 🙏
What a beautiful response, Lisa. You’re so reflective. Caroline Myss talks about the Victim being one of our core survival archetypes so I’d say all of us will tap into her strategies when we’re not in our heart or accessing the higher mind. But there’s the Witness extending a generous hand up. And the Performer has many amazing attributes too. Lots to reflect on. Thank you for sharing as always your insights. 🙏🏽
Thank you for this. The Performer I know very well. Most of the time it’s exhausting but I appreciate your point of view.
Denyse, thank you for your reply. Yes we’re levelling up for sure. Blessings. 😊
Ohhhhh, as I read this, so many memories came swirling up….The Performer in me has surprisingly enjoyed the isolation during the pandemic because the need or constant pull to perform has dissipated. I feel As of this time has been an incubator for something I’ve been trying to birth, my life calling. The quiet time out of the spotlight, out of the seemingly never ending chitchat of conversations has been good for me. That said I still think I need more time and I will go back to performing, but it will be in a different manner. But not looking for love to come back to me. as of this time has been an incubator for something I’ve been trying to birth, my life calling. Like you mentioned performing from love for the joy of love. Thank you.
Thank you so much, Jenny, for being here and sharing your insights about the changes you’ve noticed in you throughout the pandemic and your reflections about the Performer. I love what you wrote about performing from love for the joy of love–so beautifully expressed. Sending you so many blessings for the life you feel is calling you now.
Once again a moving, insightful and inspired blog. Very apt especially right now for me as you know. Of course have written a poem (which I will post on the Rubies) Thank you my dear friend. xxx
Awww thank you. I read it and it’s beautiful. As always. The lines about the smile and the vow got me!! Love you Rene!! Xoxoxo
Artfully written, Jenn. A call to self-reflection and growth for me. I turn in and witness all that I am/can & want to be. The idea of being a performer for love and light to bring more beauty into the world—WOW!
Oh Mridula–thank you so much. I love how you turned the Performer towards the Love and Light to bring in more beauty!! So who are you when you are the Performer for Love and Light? What are you doing, feeling, thinking… when you stand in that type of energy?? (That question is for you privately to respond to if you felt the call). Lots of love to you. xo
I just read this on the Bowl of Saki for August 18 by the Sufi teacher Hazrat Inayat Kahn (feels very relevant):
Look not on life as a person would watch a play on the stage. Rather look upon it as a student who is learning at college. It is not a passing show; it is not a place of amusement in which to fool our life away. It is a place for study, in which every sorrow, every heartbreak brings a precious lesson. It is a place in which to learn by one’s own suffering, by the study of the suffering of others; to learn from the people who have been kind to us as well as from the people who have been unkind. It is a place in which all experiences, be they disappointments, struggles, and pains, or joys, pleasures, and comforts, contribute to the understanding of what life is, and the realization what it is.