NEW MOON IN SAGITTARIUS
4 degrees (Beauty, One Step at a Time)
November 26, 2019
7:05 am Pacific /10:05 am Eastern
Happy New Moon!!
I love this sign. Social, generous, expansive, fun–if you want to raise the energy of any gathering, invite a Sag.
But Sagittarius is also on an important mission of meaning-making in our psyches, having travelled far inwards and outwards in Her journey of Love.
The Sag in all of our Souls is looking for the Wisdom from Her experiences, seeking the Truth about Love and willing to share what She learns.
The Sun and New Moon side-by-side in Sagittarius on Nov. 26 may be asking you how comfortable are you with seeking out the Truth? With stretching yourself for Love?
The archetypes of the Pilgrim and the Philosopher, Sagittarius sparks within us a longing to travel, to see the world, to ask life’s big questions and to live the answers, to plunge ourselves in expanded states of consciousness, to immerse ourselves in a spiritual container that encourages deep musings and long, mystical talks into the night with like-minded souls.
I used to cringe when I’d hear people call their friends “brothers” or “sisters” or refer to a particular group or community as their “tribe” or “soul family.”
Until I found mine.
For five years, I had a tribe, a spiritual community I loved. My soul family in a metaphysical learning lab.
We gathered locally, took many classes and retreats together each year, travelled around the world with our teachers, travelled inner worlds together. We volunteered to serve as a team to help at classes and then to build the classes, while lifting each other up, inspiring one another to live our life mission, continually reaching for greater spiritual heights.
The Mystic and the Intellecual in me were happy. I felt nourished to be in a space with such loving women who made up most of the community. I’d been asking the Universe for a deeper type of friendshipping for years. And I received it.
Then unbelievable as it was at the time, I was forced to leave the group and my position in it as one of the team leaders — the vision I had for my life was in stark contrast to the vision and intense, erratic behaviour of one of the teachers. And so I wrote an email saying thank you for the gifts I did receive, but I had to go (a bigger story for another day–and in another way).
Within 48 hours, three of my closet friends within the community messaged me to say goodbye and good luck with my life–a few short sentences and the friendships were over.
Then two more stopped talking to me. One called through tears saying she’d been asked to choose between my friendship and the community.
I’d prepared myself for the cut-off because I’d seen it happen before to other people who’d left the spiritual organization. Naively, I’d thought somehow the bond I shared with my friends would be different. That the love we had for each other would transcend community norms and loyalty to the teachers.
But it didn’t.
Many months later, some members of the community reached out. They’d been told I was in shadow, crazy even, not to be trusted, my character flaws magnified to such an extent it would be hard to tell the truth from the lies. I was told the content of the resignation letter I’d written had been grossly misconstrued.
I mentally understood that all of this might happen and yet I was still devastated. I thought my Sister-Friends knew my heart, knew who I was and what I stood for. I believed that the sacred journey we’d experienced for so many years would have kept us Sisters and Friends for a lifetime.
I imagined we’d still talk, catch up and tell each other all the wonderful things that were going on in each other’s lives. I so deeply hoped that the love we had for each other would transcend community norms and loyalty to the teachers.
But it didn’t.
And even though my shattered heart took several months to rest, the Sagittarius part of my soul which is a Seeker and a Quester, like you, is on a journey for Truth.
You may be healing places inside of you still hurting from being forced to leave a faith organization, a spiritual community or a circle of friends.
When we lose our connections to people we love, especially the ones with whom we’ve shared a deep vision or spiritual connection, it hurts. The Victim (who is human) needs time to heal from such experiences, not spiritually or emotionally bypass the pain, before we trust again.
But eventually, if we tap into the mastery energy of the Sagittarius part of our soul, the Sagittarius curriculum will sit us down and have us examine how our awareness has been expanded through experiences like these that have challenged us to grow, to stretch, to continually ask the big questions, to have new experiences, to walk through many doors always in search of Truth.
Sagittarius teaches that there is a need for Truth about Love, a higher perspective to anything that we experience.
I cried big tears for many months. Spent many nights praying for the anger to be released. I wanted to shake my friends awake. Mostly, however, I was grateful that I could breathe. Having left, I felt I had the freedom to actually live a life according to values that were important to me and in a much kinder way.
I realized that even though we may find our tribe, our community, our friends and walk a path together for a time, not everyone will walk together each step of the Way.
Many of us who’ve experienced isolation, rejection or expulsion from a family, group or community setting (spiritual, professional or otherwise) are healing from similar experiences we’ve encountered earlier in our childhood and even over the course of lifetimes.
We’ve all made choices to walk certain paths based on what our soul learning requires, each decision resulting in a new attunement to different levels of consciousness.
If you make Love and Truth the Sherpas walking you up your mountain of consciousness, relationships that feel heavy and are no longer in alignment will require you to leave them behind whether you initiate that farewell or circumstances do.
And that is a true Sagittarius tale. Our Trail-mates become our Teachers.
We don’t stop part way up the mountaintop if we are on the True Quest. We didn’t stay in Grade One, because Mrs. Anderson wasn’t going to teach Grade Two or Becky went into another class.
We rest for a while and look for a new way to ascend and a different group with whom to travel.
Rest. Ascend. Repeat. Hopefully, at a pace with much more grace and compassion and a whole lot more joy.
Love from the road
to the mountaintop
with my Sherpas all around me,
P.S. Have you even been asked or forced to leave a group of any kind? How did you feel? How did you heal? How are you doing now? Please share your insights in the comment section below.
YOUR NEW MOON CEREMONY
We’re here for the learning, the big questions, the walk up to the mountaintop, the plunge in an ocean of loving consciousness–one way or another, our Higher Self, our Divine Plan will call us to this place of exploration and expansion. A tarot spread sets up a container to dive as deeply into our subconscious as our consciousness is willing to go. Here’s your spread for the New Moon.