Sagittarius New Moon + Solar Eclipse: Strong. Free. True.

Dear Friend,

This Sagittarius New Moon and Eclipse feel particularly important.

As I stand in Sagittarius’s wise ways and truth-telling energy, I must confess.

This year was hard for reasons I’m sure were sourced from and similar to the challenges you faced and felt as well. 

So I’m grateful for this day and this New Moon & Solar Eclipse, which may serve to remind us that even in these heart-breaking, heart-opening, still-quarantining times, we can sift through the chaos that this year was and relocate ourselves in the Divine Adventure in Loving Consciousness that our souls have committed to take. 

December seems to naturally draw us into the dark, silent energies of the season to retreat and reflect. 

In the beginning stages of my sorting through the learning from the year 2020 has been, I breathed into the Sagittarius energies of movement and mastery, evolution and expansion, from the archetypal lens of the Student-Teacher, the Quester & the Trailmate…

…and then I wrote this letter this morning that I hope creates a jumping off point for your own reflection of the Spirit of this year, this eclipse and our times. 

Dear 2020,

You really did it, didn’t you? 

I saw what you did—creating chaos, confusion, mass fear, confining us, tearing us apart inside and out, breaking us down in order to break through our carefully crafted defenses that caused inner and outer systems to crack and false paths, outdated beliefs and outworn relationships to be exposed. 

You truly showed us that we could no longer look away as you shone a penetrating light on what ails us personally as well as our global family.

No longer could we deny that the cracks in our systems are actually chasms in the way we love, confronting our passivity, privilege, patriarchy and polarization within and without.

This stretching, twisting and pummeling of our hearts forced us to look at the state of our world and all the people who live in it, compelling us to cast our gaze far past our front doors, asking ourselves…

Can we accept what we see? 

Some days this year were so intense that a part of me would’ve liked to have hidden in bed under the false safey of the covers, but the answer to the question is always and simply no. A resounding no.

No, no, no, no. 

The power and potency of a New Moon and Solar Eclipse provide us with the time and space to rise above the day-to-day and step-by-step walk we’re taking to find an expanded view, an expansive why and a greater personal and collective vision for 2021 and beyond.

So we can address what we are no longer willing to see. 

From the ashes of what burned down this year and breathing into the Sagittarius fires of the creative response, I will ask this New Moon for sustained passion and purpose in answering the call of these times.

…for Durga‘s courage to swim through the ebbs and the flows that come with massive tides of change.

…for Kuan Yin compassion to tend to bruised hearts (mine included) and the capacity to respond to the tireless calls of tired bodies, showing us better ways to nourish ourselves and the people around us. 

…to uncover Kali-sized truths about ways that no longer serve, to release the control of something we no longer need to play out. A belief, a habit, a relationship, a way of being. 

…to activate within me Mother Mary‘s heart, so I can be open and vulnerable to love, to grieve the losses of what I used to know and the person I thought I was to be.

…to call forth the Inner Pilgrim to take the sacred journey inside to see where I’m called to think bigger, higher & wiser, to take bolder action, to speak braver truths… to relocate myself in the New World that you, 2020, have gifted us. 

No other year in recent memory has asked me to consider more deeply why I’m here and what I’m prepared to risk, to serve from a place sourced from my truest nature and fullest expression.

I realize allowing myself to be my natural self goes against collective conditioning, but 2020…you showed us that the pain of not being the Lovers, the Humanitarians, the Leaders, the Artists, the Creatrixes & the Healers we are meant to be will create a life half-lived. 

“I was a hidden treasure and I longed to be known” so the Sufi prayer goes.  

We are all hidden treasures who long to be known, to be seen, to be heard. Please imprint this truth in my mind and my heart.

I learned this year that it is a loving kindness to show up in life as my true nature requires, to hear my soul’s call and to provide a safe space for others to do the same. 

So I’ll answer these questions I’ve often asked before, caring more deeply than ever before about how I will respond…

Why am I here?
Who am I becoming?
Who am I in my fullest expression and how does that call me to serve?
What am I prepared to risk, to release, in order to serve from an authentic, aligned place?

I’m ready for the electrifying new visions that Jupiter and Saturn will usher in this week as they merge with the Aquarian energy of the Creative Genius leading a Lover’s Revolution. 

A revolution whose purpose will be to light up our Inner Compass of Truth, Love, Justice and Beauty located inside each of our hearts, swirling in the energies of a love affair we’re secretly having with our soul but often forget when we’re listening to other people’s voices, caught up in other people’s agendas for our lives.

I will remember that in an expansive Sagittarian eclipse portal like the one we’re walking through right now, many doors may open but not all of them must I or should I walk through. I just need to create the stillness to listen to my own heart. 

2020 as I sign off for now, I realize this year, as hard as it was, did forge inside of me greater courage to release the old, committing to the admitting & the transcending of my doubts and fears, to surround myself with people who inspire and support me and to allow my love-sourced values guide the higher call I’m now hearing, moving me to where my soul longs to be.

See ya, 2020. You are what I make of you.  

Respectfully,
Jenn

Now it’s your turn…if you were to write a letter to 2020 about what transpired for you, what would you say? What have you learned? What are you to committed to more now than ever before?

Please share a little below.